We had a wonderful Mother’s Day here on this side of the world. Maeve gifted me with sleeping in until 8am! That never happens. Then we spent the morning at the beach in the most gorgeous weather. Please God don’t make me endure another Ohio winter. I’ll take a Cape Town winter any day. Yesterday was chilly, rainy and windy but today is mid 70’s and sunny. We got dirty in the sand and Maeve enjoyed her favorite activity…eating sand. It was such a wonderful, slow morning before an afternoon at church.
I was thinking about Mother’s Day today and wondering what my life would be like without these 3 munchkins that I get to be mommy too. To be honest I have no idea. For the last 5 1/2 years they have been my first priority. I was thinking about being back in South Africa and all the kids I know and love who won’t share today with their mom. The kids that we drove by who were playing in the trash pile full of glass and no one cared. I thought about all the women who I pray along side who long to be a mom. I felt so joyful and sad all at the same time.
I want my kids to know how much I love them. That everyday I pray that God would work through all my selfishness and pride so that they see Jesus through my actions. I hope you know how wanted to you are. Finnegan, Aislinn, and Maeve you are so deeply loved. You are so much a part of me. Carrying you, birthing you, feeding you, loving you is such a joy for me. I also want you to know that you don’t have to carry the weight of completing me. I hear cute phrases like “you are my everything or you are my whole heart”. Thats not really true at all. I was complete in who I am in Christ before you and my heart of was full before you came along. After you are older and no longer need my undivided attention I know I’ll survive. Your bad days aren’t a reflection on my worth as a mom. I’ll love you on your cranky days and you love me on mine, okay? But I love you with every bone in my body. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for you.
And can I just say that you cannot totally appreciate your own mom until you become a mom? Mom, I love you so much and think most days “what would mom do?”
To all the women, Happy Mother’s Day! Whether you have your own kids or not you are so special to someone who needs a mother’s heart. Being a mom is not like a one woman show. There are so many women who mother my kids with me, and I can’t do this without them!
Find a mom today and look them in the eye and say “you are doing a great job”. Trust me, they need to hear it.