My dear Wade and Tara, I loved your post. It made me realize that there have been many times that I have felt the exact same way, but with different circumstances. The lesson you have described that God is teaching you, even in the midst of your preparations to come to South Africa, is His equipping work in your life. For there will be many days after you arrive and reach the goal you so long for that God will continue testing you in this area of your walk with him. Contented discontentment — only by His grace! Love, Mom